Another Weakend (Get it?)

Number of days since my last treat from Tim Hortons: 7 (at least)
Number of days since my last pound of chicken wings: 2
Number of days since my last pound of chicken wings before that: 1

2 pounds of chicken wings in 2 days! And I haven't even admitted to the fries that accompanied the wings! Or the booze! This is why I'm overweight!

Why? I can ask myself this simple question over and over. I can beat myself up about it over and over, but I'm still incapable of finding my willpower OVER AND OVER! I'm so good during the week. I limit my calories throughout the day, I take note of the number of Weight Watchers points I'm accumulating, I eat properly, there have even been a few nights that I've gone to bed hungry. It all becomes a wasted attempt once the weekend hits.

The problem is that I like to go out with friends and I like to be able to eat what they eat, because otherwise, I'll sit there salivating over their meals throughout dinner and, let's be honest, it kind of makes for an uncomfortable evening. Little side note: A couple of years ago I had gone to a mall food court on my lunch break with a friend from work. You know when you have too many options to choose from you almost always make the wrong choice and end up regretting it throughout your whole meal? Well this was the case for me that day. I had a boring sub, and she had some yummy, greasy Chinese food. I literally could not take my eyes off her plate the whole time we were there. I guess my mouth was watering excessively, so when I opened it to tell her her how great her lunch looked, I spit right.in.her.food! I apologized emphatically, and she laughed and said, "If you really wanted some you could have just asked!". I was mortified! Although, if you know me, you're aware of my issues with bodily fluids, and you'll also know that this ranks low on the list of mortifying moments involving said bodily fluids.

Sorry, I digress (I've always wanted to say that!).

So these are the situations I try to avoid when out for a bite to eat with friends. It's a lame excuse, I know. Willpower is all about overcoming the urge. I'm working on it, but in the meantime my only other option is to become a hermit or just steer clear of any outings that involve food. This makes me sad. Hand me a cookie.